About Me

JayYouEsTeeEyeEnEmAyEightchEmYouDee -Psych0oMantis

So my name is _____. Life for me so far has been a bumpy ride. I'm in a place now where my biggest goal is to make sense of the world we live in. Things always make sense when you never ask questions. To me thats one of the biggest problems. Too many people assume we live in this perfect world where everything is justified. Anyhow things from the get go flipped my life upside down. Hard to imagine your life flashing before your eyes before living long enough to know what a memory was. Well that was me. Having an experience like that is truly not something to brag about, but the outlook it gives you is something that is hard to describe to others. It opens the door to faith and spirituality, the belief that life is not so black and white. It gives you the leap of faith you need to understand that life is not this big coincidence.

So to bring things back to a personal level. For many years I've been this very shy and quiet person who hated to try new things. This became an issue early on for me because as a child  had moved from house to house many times. And when I say many I mean literally more than 10 times, The longest I had ever stayed in a single school was 2 years so you can imagine how hard it was to make friends. I never had that stability in order to gain simple social skills. To be quite honest, I never really had many friends. Not until late in high school did I finally break out of my shell and realize what I have been missing.

I like to think now that I am the total opposite of what I was growing up. I feel as though nowadays meeting new people is something normal and easy for me. Back then the stress and needless anxiety would always be too much for me. I like to make people smile, I joke around a lot but do not let that fool you. I take things very seriously, if you ever get in an argument with me or know anyone that has they will tell you I am the most annoying person to ever start with. I like to think of an argument as a game and I do not like to lose. In my mind I am rarely ever wrong but I do not let things get to my head, if you prove me wrong I will gladly tip my hat off to you and I have done so in the past.

One of my best qualities is my ability to simply listen to someone's problems and be that trustworthy person so many people need in their life. Somethings are very dangerous to keep bottled up inside you and I know how bad that feels. Everyone deserves that outlet to set themselves free however it isn't always that easy. There are many people out there who do not understand how to keep other peoples business to themselves. Being that person people come to is something I've happily grown accustomed to. So if you ever need someone to talk to, i'm your guy.

Going hand in hand with this is the importance of friendship. I'm a strong believer that not everyone you simply know and associate with are friends. Friendship is much more. To me friends are those who will always have your back, people who will always be down for you when you need it most. There may be people who think I am their friends but in my mind I draw clear borders. Only true friends will get respect from me.

Lastly I have an amazing girlfriend and we have been going strong for 2 years. Relationships are always best when stemmed from friendship and she started off as one of my best friends. Relationships are much deeper than just physical attraction, there are a lot of guys out there who love hooking up with dozens of random girls and have a different girl every month. That is fine, but they will probably never understand how amazing it feels to be with someone you can share everything with, someone you don't have to worry about when they're not with you, someone that makes your day ...every day.

All in all, I'm the type of person you're either going to love or hate.
Makes no difference to me.